The Offer
The most unexpected thing anyone has ever said to me changed my life
“That is completely unacceptable. I want all of you or this doesn’t work.” It is the most unexpected thing another person has ever said to me. He said it with a determination and a twinkle in his eye that was completely disarming. I should not have been surprised by this turn in the conversation. Disarming me was quickly becoming his forte.
Exploring possibilities about our connection had brought me to a place that I was willing to offer physical pleasure devoid of the emotional and spiritual ties that often derail even the best intended entanglements. His prompt rebuff left me wrecked. My mind could not fully comprehend what was said, but the words went directly to my racing heart. How could this incredible man want me? Not just the physical pleasure, but all of me? Could he even know what he is asking? Does he know what an incredible mess I am? What will happen when he sees past my desire for him to the broken scarred places in my soul?
As my heart turned to the rutted path of self-doubt, I realized my focus was on my fidgeting hands to avoid his gaze. Looking up anticipating the judgment that has haunted my journey, my eyes caught his. There in those riveting blue eyes was the bewildering answer. He had shared his truth and a twinge of sadness crossed his face as he sought the meaning in my hesitation to be real with him in this moment. In the silence, I felt myself exhale for the first time in much too long as I relaxed into the possibility before me. The chance to be completely real was an offer too good to refuse.
